This post is based on notes I took during the first couple of months at the school, I just havent gotten around to writing it yet, so the following post should be filed under those months if possible.
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The first couple of months at the university were a really trying time for me. I had to return to Denmark for personal reasons, and thus from the start were behind on pretty much everything - I struggled with knowing what was required of me, and what I really wanted to get out of the education, as well as what options of attending bachelor-level classes were available to me. Couple this with being woefully undertrained compared to my classmates, and I had created a situation for myself where I almost disliked working on anything due to the level of quality of the results. I tried focusing on the Design of games for each of the weekly tasks, with the result that while the the game might be designed in its core game-play, I had very little to actually show during the presentations, something that led me to think I was even further behind, all leading to a 'catch-up'-mentality, which is not really good for motivation or creativity.
I was (and am) convinced I have not mastered, or even semi-mastered, the very basics of art and, in the case of digital drawing/painting, digital techniques, and so this is what I tried to focus on, all the while falling further behind in stuff I could actually show.
It was a trying time, and I sometimes felt like my body was actively fighting against even trying to do any work, because I would not like the result. Furthermore, having to spend time on theoretical subjects rather than practical did not exactly help.
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